For you

i cannot run away from this anymore. even if i am a shy person, i have to tell you my feelings out now. if not, i hate the wall that is blocking us now.
dear bestest friend, i am feeling very sad now. if you think that i really meant " i hate you " then perharps you don't know me. i am feeling more horrible than i felt when the someone from maple left. and as my bestest friend you know how much he meant to me. however, i found out: you mean more to me.
you mean more to me than anything except my parents, but you're next. i don't care if i fail but i just want to be with you. even if i stay alone in the future i would like to be able to go out with you to have a cup of coffee. because it's you. because it's you.
you have never made me feel alone at all during the past (almost)2 years. when i ran the PFT, you waited for me in the end. when i couldn't do a pull-up, you smiling face was always there to look at me. even when i was the ugliest and heaviest girl, you took me in and even though you were pretty, you did not mix with the first row girls. and i am glad that you were there. i'm glad i met you.
i'm sure the both of us are very different now. however, it really really hurt me when you said: let us be strangers. it hurt me so hard i thought i would never be able to face you ever again. the fear of losing you is really very scary to me.
losing you is not something i can handle because i have already fell so deep into you. dearest friend, i hope you have read this because what i want to say really is i love you very dearly and perharps this test is what makes us stronger in the end.